As said MW will have to give its day to TGT because TGT has a deadline. And even design changed Monday seems to be day of Dragon Dreams.

Baby dragon had an arm when I begun to stitch this today and here's how it looks like now (I've had busy night because we had/have problems with one forum user... ended up being banned, and I'd really love to see that report of an offence she promised to make (there's no base for it, just one's paranoid illusions)):

I've to say that I'm quite happy with my conversion from greens to purples. (Angela, I can hear you drooling. )

In other news

CCLE is mailed, as is one leaflet from my unwanted list. It'll immigrate to live with Cindy as she is/was in dire need of Christmas ornament designs and as I want to give loving homes to stash I don't want to live with...
And Sabine should get something from me in one of these days. (I really love to make those parcels, even my finances limit them quite a bit, but IMO I can still make it quite well.)

And my chilis really could use some therapy. It's end of September and they look like this:

1. I wont finish Summer in time (But thank you chanda_m and Jenna for good luck wishes! I try to do my best in Sunday!). Dan popped by for a surprise visit (which is interesting as he lives about ~180 kms from here (he is visiting his mother, so he didn't travelled 180 kms. Only 6 or so)) and I spent this day by drinking excess amounts of coffee, drooling after apartments in New York and saving the world (in sauna - Finnish style).
2. That person I was talking about in Friday has lead to me being extremely annoyed and laughing my a** off after it. He claims that I called him paranoid even I've never done such a thing... Life, anyone?

1. dislike Cancerian males (there's something in wrong with those guys, really. At least if you ask from me (and know my experiences about them).)
2. am misanhtrope.

Anyway, in general this has been a good day. It was great to see Dan again ("Again"... haven't seen him in.... 45 days...). Once again I remembered why I wanted to stay in touch with him after we decided to separate/ divorce: He's really great person - a bit eccentric though (And I'm not eccentric?! ).

I'm heading for silver now and decided to boost my performance by participating Stitch-A-Thon (The idea of FG's Stitch-A-Thons is to set stitching goal for specified project over third weekend of every month) at Friends Gather and setting humongous goal. I'm quite sure I wont be able to stitch that much (My goal is to finish Winter and Summer), but it keeps me going. And I'll look like this in Sunday evening.
At this moment I'm having a little coffee (and blogging) break, as those metallics in Winter can be quite annoying (but then: it's gorgeous!). In fact I've problems with that white PTB, gold was a pleasure to stitch with. Anyway, it's almost finished! Winter I mean.

Angela and Rósa, thank you for your support. That entry was really for venting as I really needed to get that annoyance out of my system just to prevent arrhytmias and migraine (How so stress is not good for me?).

As I see it it's not about men having problem with women with power (I'm against stereotypes and therefore I'm against that, even I know it's true in some cases - but it's so also vice versa in some cases so...), it's in general all about that little thing that people have problems with themselves and then they attack you. I know I haven't done anything wrong and that I don't haunt him in any way. If he thinks so, he's free not to visit there - and if it really bothers him that much... maybe he should have a break.
And fact is that you can't please everyone. My goal is to keep majority happy and not dance according to some cranky individual's notes.

I give you all one good advice: never ever become forum admin.

Ok, it's not bad hobby, and mostly it's more or less rewarding in certain sense, but one person just made me feel so angry.... I do not approve that someone blames me on something I do not do. It pisses me off that when I try to keep things running smoothly some idiot claims that I'm on crusade against him.

I know I shouldn't take it personally, but I can't help feeling frigging miserable at this moment. I just don't need false claims from anyone...

I don't know is it just a coincidence, or just the end of the year, but when I glance around me, and into my own life, it seems that there are odd things happening to people and their relationships.
I was doing my before Sabbath administrator duties in the board (little by little into better direction, my Sabbaths I mean - some day I'll stop blogging, hanging in forums and blabbering in IRC, but I'm not yet ready for that, and I'm not forcing myself. It happens when it happens. It's a journey anyway.) and read one user's post in a certain thread. And even her relationship is completely different from mine to begin with it's odd how similar situation we both are in. (Not to mention that there's things happening to people in general - outside that forum )

Two options, both feel odd, but there's feeling that something should happen - and something odd/ scary/ bad/ etc. will happen soon.
In my case odd has happened already, but I've thing feeling that there's something even more odd to come, and possibly(/very likely) during this year.
And what ever happens... I seem to be the one who makes drastic moves, if and when there's such things.

I'm not afraid of what future brings, as I know I'll live what ever happens. I'm just confused in certain level, as my current situation is something I wasn't even thinking in my wildest/ oddest dreams.
And unfortunately my current situation forces me to believe in fate even more than I've used to. (At the moment of pure oddness I knew why I was experiencing it... and that is freaky.)

Have you noticed that I didn't tell anything even I wrote quite much?

"Stole" this from Jenna's blog:

South Park Studio

According to bits_2_whole it's alike...

Btw.

"Our users have posted a total of 10081 articles."

From zero to this in 9 weeks.

It seems that forum crash in September wasn't even a mistake from hosting side. It seems that they deleted it intentionally. I could almost say "I knew this".

******** cowards. Spineless idiots.

Can't even vent properly as I really don't know what to say.

I know what I do. Maybe not wisest act, but... I take my current big WIP off from my scroll frame. 'Topiary Sampler's fabric is way too big to be held in hand. It's difficult to even make grid lines to it without any frame.

I just hope that I get what I need as Yule gifts: money. I really need more frames.

Board.

4700 posts in four weeks. (Ok, it lacks two hours still so there'll be more.)

And when I woke up from my 'short' nap (migraine, lack of sleep and 800mg of ibuprofen did the trick. Slept 4 hours) there was new user who has my sis' name as a nick. Ok, once again name which isn't very rare globally, but anyway.

Forum statistics.

~2100 messages in two weeks.

General.

You just got to love this body. Migraine which don't want to leave me completely, and now my ovaries are killing me. Not to mention that I'm so blue that I'd just like to be miserable and eat piles of chocolate.
'Fortunately' there's soy lecithin in chocolates so I can't eat it very much at one time. Maybe I should drink coffee 'til I explode...

I hate this kind of days.

Well, you shouldn't provoke lunatic... So, I 'had' to try Yahoo's 360° and added my blog feeds to there...

Then I found Feedburner while fighting with too easy feed addings:

That is what followed from it...

Crazy? Maybe, who knows?

Household activities.

It seems that laundry is only thing in my done list today, nothing else will be done today as I haven't been eating today and I'm tired.
Yes, I should eat but what to do if you're not hungry or you don't feel like eating? I haven't even made any coffee today.

Though I really should try to do that barley based pizza... been planning trying it for some days already.

Forum statistics.

Over 1300 posts in first 7 days. 45 users. And most of them are quite silent.

And the rest of us blabber more than it's wise.

Still sick. In fact it seems to get worse in certain sense. Though it's good as it means that I could get rid of this some day.
It's always better to be really sick few days than in no-man's land for weeks.

Admin issues.

As my sis mentioned my career as a forum admin started in quite disastrous way.
Fortunately we got free hosting from one nice individual and one forum user installed software on my behalf. Now we're back in business and there has been over 350 posts made (and 26 users) in first 24 hours.

To be honest, it feels great.

Dreams.

It's odd how faithful I am. I can't be close to another man even in my dreams without thinking what Sonneschein says about it. (And I know that he wouldn't say anything about that. Because he's too friggin' polite sometimes, and because he trusts my morals - at least that is what he has said.)

It felt good to be close to someone, even in a dream, as I haven't been close to anyone since I met A. for the last time. And still I felt so friggin' guilty because of it.
Oddest thing in it is that we never did anything in that dream with that guy - nor even intented.

It's seems that I'm quite a fundamentalistic monoamorist.

Issues.

He has certain problems with his parents' opinions, and it bothers me. Mostly because he's not able to speak with them in this week. Monday is some kind of estimation but...
This issue bothers him too, but still he doesn't want to talk about that with me.

I'm quite frustrated. And worried. And it bothers me that his stress affects to us. He's so stressed about that issue that he can't see other things clearly.
We have had few minor arguments because of his stress makes him blind in a way...

Have I ever said that I really wait that day when this waiting and uncertainty is over?

Other things.

Sometimes I doubt how sane I am.
I should be hosting one chatroom tomorrow evening... well, with some coffee I'll manage.

And... my home page will be offline few weeks - how will I survive without my list of freebie links?

I must be crazy. I took one forum in my control. I'm only admin in there so...
Though it's small one so it shouldn't be a burden. I just may have to get one co-moderator, just in case (because there are moments when I don't get into net in days - few of them but anyway...).