It makes one wonder, when watching that beautiful little boy sleep, does his biofather (not a father, just biological father, if you ask from me) even understand what he lost by disowning Tiny?
Does he ever even think of that little boy he swore he won't meet before he comes of age?
Having been set free has made me think and remember a lot of things that happened when I left Mr. Ex II, the whys of doing that. I had almost forgot he disowned that precious little boy, even before I told him it's over.
And my simple mind simply can not understand and for someone who strives to understand that is a huge problem.
But then, I am the one who knows what a loving, funny and smart little boy Tiny is. And I know that sometimes Tiny smiles because I am his mother.
That's all one needs to know. Nothing more.
As it took forever to get Tiny to bed I decided to dedicate this evening for blogging (and maybe some stitching afterwards).
I got some extra money and went crazy in regard of stash... and came to a conclusion that less money I have the better. *grin*
I have received two lovely envelopes from Sewandso...
Then I simply had to save and order few things from one closing sale...
And then my regular auto ships (and irregular auto ships *grin*) from Crazy Annie's.
And this is not all, but let's not get there before they arrive... yet. *smirk*
I did stitch. On the last day of April... but I did stitch and that is what matters when it comes to my goals. I also managed to update my cross stitch pattern inventory as I happily packed them for future mischief.
I have to say that it was wonderful to fondle all the pretty stash.
There is over 600 patterns... and I still have to inventory books, kits, WIPs and misplaced patterns (which I know I have). *grin* If I'd make a full inventory I think I'd be closer to full value of 10 000 euros (cross stitch stash only). Quite a shocking thought, don't you think? *grin*
But, I put some stitches to my MIP (Most Important Project): Tiny's Lightning McQueen.
Its getting to a phase where it's starting to look like what it should and it makes it nicer to work with.
My goal postings seem to be rather erratic, but better occasionally than never, right?
I didn't set any goals for the month of March, but I have stitched. not every day, but when I have had energy.
And the project of choice has not been a current WIP, but a Vervaco kit my mother bought from Tallinn per my request.
It came with aida so I dug a piece of light blue evenweave from my stash and am planning to buy a piece of Cars fabric to finish it as a pillow for Tiny.
Knowing how he is he'll go everywhere with it when it is done and pillow is a good item for carrying around. (And he gets a sofa of his own in his room as we get a new old sofa (and I thought the old old sofa would be good in Tiny's room) so he needs some pillows, right? *grin*)
Thanks to Tiny's rather erratic craving for bananas we have had quite a few overripe bananas in our house lately and I have been baking like there's no tomorrow (and my waistline has appreciated that greatly).
Today I googled banana cookies
as it sounded like a fun idea and came upon this
They came out as little cakes, but are yummy!
I replaced 1/4 of flour with coconut flour (which I love), added ½ tsp of cardamom (which I love) and replaced suggested nuts with sunflower seeds.
I am afraid that there may not be any left when my mom comes on Thursday even I thought it would be nice to have something sweet with coffee...
As usual things tend to go awry when they are going well.
First I had nasty URI for over four weeks (and chances are that I got a sinusitis from it), then I shattered the screen of my phone (insurance covered 56 euros, initial bill roughly 202 euros...) and one of my teeth started acting up (its first root canal treatment visit is on Friday, oh joy!). And stress is not good for my mojo, or blogging. Or me.
But, I have been stitching a bit lately. My mom brought a Lightning McQueen cross stitch kit from Tallinn and I just had to start it, even Tiny knows nothing about it, and it is slowly beginning to look like a car (no pics as for now as I dislike my old sucky Nokia with passion).
I'll probably finish it as a small pillow or somesuch so Tiny can carry it around and adore it.
And on good news:
Mr. Tiny, also known as my little bundle of joy and/ or frustration (he is in *that* age, see), turned 2! Despite being born last week he did turn two... I guess he goes school in next month or so. *grin* (He'll start school 2019... but goes to kindergarten within a year. o.O)
So, here I am. Alive and more or less well. Just tired and stressed and so on. *grin*
I was a bad, BAD person and started "Cirque Des Coeurs
" and I must say that I love
Even one might no believe it, but it's a multidimensional design which changes its message as you stitch it. And I am happy that I also have the triangle version and use affordable, easily accessible floss as I have had an insane thought to stitch all of them over undefined period and make them a matching set.
When I retire, or so. *grin*
The colours are way off, thanks to taking pictures nighttime under artificial light.
I am using Anchor's variegated cotton for this and it looks just fabulous, but, for understandable reasons it's impossible to take pictures during the day....
But, insane plans aside, I have also stitched some CJC pieces!
"Christmas Sampler" has got quite much attention and looking at it now makes me want to stitch it again, it looks so beautiful!
I have also stitched fair bit of "This Too Shall Pass" which is one of 2013 crazies.
The colours look very mismatched in all the pictures despite looking lovely in real life. I have Avocado and Cherry Wine on (I think) Amsterdam Blue linen.
"For This Child" has also grown bigger!
Even the silk is absolutely beautiful its colour changes are so frequent that stitching with it is slow and taxing if you want to have something that even remotely resembles logic in those colour slides.
Part of my Living Cheap
program is trying to use everything in the fridge/ pantry without having to throw stuff away because it has gotten bad... I realized the other day I have overripe kiwi fruits in fruit bowl and wondered what to do with them (as I don't eat them as is because I am slightly allergic).
I googled "kiwi cake" (I know kiwi is a bird! *grin* In here the fruit just happens to be called just kiwi - as is the bird, slightly confusing sometimes) and found a recipe for this kiwi cake.
Perfect recipe actually as I thought I didn't have any margarine for baking.
I was wrong, so I ended using it, replaced brown sugar with 2/3 regular sugar and 1/3 molasses (altogether 2/3 of sugar in the recipe) then added some ages old frozen slices of apple in the kiwi fruit jam and processed it to somewhat coarse mix and I also added pinch of ginger into it.
This recipe produces dense, but yummy cake, which goes down a bit too well.... *ahem*
I think that next time I'll mix baking soda to flour, mix the sugar with eggs, maybe just process the fruit with blender.... some cinnamon and cardamom would go well with this too, I think.
Try it, your hips will regret it! *grin* And now I'm going to get some tea and cake as Tiny's napping....
I had my last two starts at 20th due having been sick, falling asleep with Tiny and so forth, but I have now officially started those fifteen! And have also stitched old projects (few stitches on "For This Child...
", but progress nevertheless)!
Yet another LHN, this time "Plums". That brown is odd, it looks very variegated on skein, but when stitched (one stitch at a time as I always do with other than regular floss) it doesn't.
I found my DMC box (and one box of hand-dyeds *ahem*) which meant starting with Dragon Dreams' designs. First one is their 2013 Holiday Treat - I just lack most of the charted colours so it'll be just sitting in its bag for a while.
"Coffee Is Magic", and yet again I have only a few of charted colours. Same actually applies to all my DD projects for now.
I am planning to stitch "Evening Dragon" with reds, I just haven't had time to check the combination during those few daylight hours we have at the moment.
Started with knight.
I realized the other night that I don't have a clue where my DMC box is and therefore kitting LHN's Sheeps would have been kind of difficult... so I changed to LHN's Fruits & Berries as they came with floss packs.
And then I realized I don't have the kind of fabric I'd like to have for "St.Basil's Cathedral
".... so, that is one more LHN.
Let's see do I have to replace Dragon Dreams' designs too... maybe it will be Crazy LHN January for me. *grin*.
After finding suitable (as "big enough") piece of fabric I started my LHN marathon with "Blueberries".
Admittedly I had a helping paw when I was stitching this....
Not much progress on "Cherries" thanks to learning new things about my nut allergy (it's worse than I thought) and being comatozed by allergy medication.
Tiny's on grocery run with granny so I'll go and try to find my DMC box before they return...
and figure out why I can't seem to figure out what is the 15th project. (Oh wait...)
In order to make coming months
easier for me I have set a goal:
- in September I can buy some stash as in September I pay the last part of my biggest amortization off.
- In October I can get some more stash as then I also pay last part of other debt.
- November and December I can do what I want with the money (I need clothes by then, luckily I have hoarded used clothes in bigger sizes for Tiny so he should be ok - and I know where Salvation Army's outlet store is *grin*. And AS I start studying (I have decided that I will be accepted *grin*) I need to buy a new laptop for school so I need some money for that (I plan to get some from Santa in addition to that).)
- in January 2015 I start saving money to pay up one last debt that is screwing things... It should only take a year at its worst.
And I already know what I want...
I have drooled after PINN's "Ganesha - The Hindu God of Wisdom" since I first saw it few years back. I saw it stitched on fiery orangey and red hand-dyed fabric and I just knew I had to get it.
They have several Ganeshas and some day I may justify buying this Ganesha too.
It's frigg*** expensive, but.... PRETTY!
(Admittedly I have two auto ships (cheap ones, sans floss and fabric) and I have a deal with Jenna I am paying each month. More about NEW stash when I have started all my crazies.)
It dawned on me in last November that in order to get a job in the profession I am planning to get a degree of I need squeaky clean background. And by starting clearing it now it will be ok when I, hopefully, graduate. (I need to apply first. *grin*)
There is also that minor thing that I want to offer Tiny things I can not at our current financial status - which would remain the same as now would I return to my old job - and I have very lame dream to actually be able to save up the down payment, get a loan and find our *own* home for Tiny and me at some point.
But all this means that I have to count cents and prioritize heavily now and focus on my goal. (Now, when it is financially easier as toddlers aren't financially demanding... yet.)
/methinks that thyroxine helped me to grow some big balls. And I love it.
Even I can tell you that my bank account at this point is a really, really sad sight. But I think this is also helping me to lose weight, I'm buying less bad foodstuff and stitch and drink tea through the evening opposed to... finding sugar highs. And despite not having weighed myself since.... erm.... long time ago, it seems that my shape has changed slightly which should mean some lost grams.
On sixth day I started Little House Needleworks' "Hope" (from the scripture series).
I changed the colour used for the flowers as "Hydrangea" was much too white to my liking and "Blooming Crocus" was closer to the preview.
Also the green has some issues, but I think that when all the other colours are stitched it pops out better. One just imagined that green floss would stand up from cobblestone linen as well as it seemed to when I checked the colours against the fabric...
And the next day I continued with LHN's scriptures and started "Comfort".
As you see lighter, muted shades of green and cobblestone have certain incompability issues, but I'm sure it'll look fabulous in the end, with all the pinks.
Today I started Erica Michaels' "A Winter Nap" and it is stitched with leftover floss on leftover piece of.... cobblestone linen. (There's a theme here...)
I am not sure about the colour I'll use for the writing, but I won't be following the chart key and use three different colours on it. Being lazy I rather just pick a nice variegated hand-dyed for it.
This will be finished as an ornament or decorative pillow as that linen is only wide enough for that - and anyway I rather finish small designs in some other way than framing.
I have a piece of quite nice poinsettia fabric that might look nice with this...
There's also the mandatory mistake in this: my moon is too fat. But you wouldn't have guessed it if I hadn't mentioned it. *grin*
It has been fun stitching, even in the expense of sleep, again!
I started with The Prarie Schooler's "Must Be Santa" and it turns out to be a fun, easy project that is actually quicker to finish than I thought.
I didn't like the idea of black teddy so I changed the colour to brown. I am not too fond of that black gift bag either, but I am not sure would it be too much brown if I changed its colour too. I have to see about that when rest of the window is finished.
On the second day I started "The Earth Laughs In Flowers" by The Sweetheart Tree.
There's only few stitches because I was really tired... which turned out to be a migraine symptom. Yay.
As you see I have started with kits, just because I have always forgot to dig through my fabric stash before Tiny goes to bed. Have to remember to dig through as there's one more kit and then I need fabric....
If the dating seems odd it's only because I tend to stitch at night, after midnight, before going to bed. So, even it's only afternoon of 2nd of January I have already stitched two days worth.
I decided to sacrifice this evening's stitching and pile up my 2014 Crazy January Challenge
"Excuse me, didn't she say she would continue with her 2013 projects?!"
Yes, it was my intention, but the organizer talked me over... well, you know me: I am easy. *grin*
So, here it comes!
- "St. Basil's Cathedral" by Dimples Designs (Transferred from 2013 as unstarted.)
- "Snowman Stocking" by Bent Creek (Transferred from 2013. Restarting.)
- "EduCATed" by Bent Creek (Transferred from 2013 as unstarted.)
- "Christmas Sampler" by Lizzie*Kate (Exclusive Limited Edition design for CasaCenina.)
- "Must Be Santa" by The Prairie Schooler (Limited Edition 2009.)
- "A Winter's Nap"" by Erica Michaels
- "Comfort" by LHN
- "Courage"" by LHN
- "Peace"" by LHN
- "Simplicity" by LHN
- "Hope" by LHN
- "The Earth Laughs in Flowers" by The Sweetheart Tree
- "2013 Holiday Treat" by Dragon Dreams
- "Evening Dragon" by Dragon Dreams
- "Coffee Is Magic" by Dragon Dreams
Awful lot of LHN, I must say, but there is a good reason to that: many LHN designs I own come with floss so it's a cheap option (and I chose designs that have their own message as I'll need encouragement this year (there will be changes in my life, but more about that later)) to kit. That's also why I have three full kits on my list. And three complimentary designs.
Of course there is another reason for those complimentary designs: my little dragon boy.
I am planning to stitch both dragon designs for Tiny - and the coffee one is obviously for me. *grin*
And now some more tea and few more stitches on my Flora. I may have another finish before 2014 if I am lucky!
As shocking as it is I actually have a FINISH!
Yes, you read it right.
I. Have. Stitched.
Despite Tiny's best efforts to keep me entertained during the night (he has slept badly last two nights - or rather has not slept, but woken up at night and then stayed up for hours).
I am participating 9 Days Christmas Challenge at Facebook and decided to pick San-Man Original's "Kisses From Heaven" as my challenge piece (started from this)... and three days later it was finished!
- Design by: San-Man Originals
- Design: Kisses From Heaven (OOP)
- Fabric: Silkweaver's "Midnight Fantasy", opalescent 28 count Cashel linen.
- Floss: misc. DMC and Anchor.
- Notes: colours are not as charted. This was first Crazy January 2013 piece I finished.
Yes, I am proud of myself.